शुक्रवार, 30 सितंबर 2011

तृष्णा

कभी खुले आस्मां में 
परों को खोल कर उड़ने की चाहत
फिर शाम ढले अपनी नीड़ में लौट जाना.

कभी चाँद को देख कर 
उसकी तरह चमकने की चाहत
फिर यूँ ही अपने कहे पे सकुचा जाना.

कभी हर बंद डब्बे के राज़ तक पहुचना
कभी अनमने से ख़ुद डब्बे में बंद हो जाना. 
ज़िन्दगी के गूढ़ रहस्य से 
मुझे रू-ब-रू  कराना
कभी ज़िन्दगी से भी जटिल बन जाना.

कभी पूरी कायनात 
अपनी हथेली पे समेट लेना
कभी खुली हथेली आस्मां की ओर कर सो जाना.

कभी भरी नज़रों से एक टक देखना 
कभी मेरी नज़रों से मुझे ही छुपाना.

कभी हौले से मेरे क़रीब आना
कभी चुपके से मुझसे दूर चले जाना.

कई दफा देखा है तुझे अपने आप के भीतर
कई दफा देखा है मैंने  
अपने आप को तेरे भीतर
कई दफा देखा है तुझे
मुझमे सिमटते हुए
कभी मेरी ज़िन्दगी से रेत सी फिसलते हुए.

तुम मरीचिका हो
मेरे जीवन के तपते रेगिस्तान की
जो मुझमे और दूर जाने का ज़ज्बा भरती है.

शायद मैं पा न सकूँ तुमको
पर तुम्हे पाने की लालसा
बनी रहेगी जीवन भर मुझमे
हमेशा.
शायद मेरी साँसों के
आखरी कतरे तक

- अमितेश

मंगलवार, 20 सितंबर 2011

दस्तक

प्यार
गोधुली के सिहरते सूरज सा एहसास
और वक़्त के साथ सघन होती उसकी तपिस

महुआ की चमकीले पीले फूलों सी नाज़ुक
और फैलती उसकी मदमाती महक.

एक अव्यक्त एहसास
सर्दी के गीले दिनों में भी
जो गुनगुना एहसास भर जाता है
दिलों के रस्ते.

यु ही बेवजह
मुस्कान फ़ैल जाना चेहरे पर,
चहकना हर छोटी-सी बात पे भी,
मुट्ठी भर ख़ुशी
सैलाब सी ज़िन्दगी पर फैलती सी,
जब ज़िन्दगी बदलती सी लगती है.

दिलों को दिलेरी सिखाता सा.

क्या मुझे फिर ये एहसास दे रहा है
अपने आने का
मेरे ह्रदय पर दस्तक दे कर!

- अमितेश

रविवार, 11 सितंबर 2011

Retirement : Threshold in The Imaginary Wall

Many a times we feel very lonely in life. Lonely, as if the world is running fast giving us a kind of stagnation. As if the world is conspiring to exclude us. And during that time, we try being very resistive or rather develop a little low profile, snatches some time from the world for us, to retrospect, relive, and cherish what we had done for the world and what good we got from world in return, as a souvenir… that we could keep with us for the lifetime.

Retirement from the professional life is one such moment when we ask ourselves, is retirement creating a kind of wall between us and the world? During that time, people really start recollecting the goods’ that he had done in the past to let his soul pat on his back of doing good job. This is probably another quest to make a threshold in that imaginary wall between us and the world, to avoid any situation of being solely and also to create a situation when we easily can keep ourselves separated or mingled at our will.

Though mostly being retire from the professional world do not much changes views of the people about us, except for the fact that we restrict ourselves of creating any situation when any financial burden should not get passed on to the retired person.

My dad is probably facing the same kind of situation. He is going to retire from his job by the end of September ’11. This somewhere had started creating a kind of insecurity in him. Though I am constantly talking to him to let him not at all feel lonely.

While talking to him today, he told me about lot of opportunities available with the government for the retired persons to work for the government and get some monetary benefits as well. When I told him to work just to get engaged and not for money, his view was, “Money is important. We do need money on every walk of our life”.

I was just listening to him. I wanted to let him speak and speak out whatever was their in his mind. He was speaking about what good he did in these thirty years and he feels he is very much satisfied with his this long career.

I feel relieved and happy once he said, “I think this is first time when I am talking to you so much”.


Dad, you need not have to justify what good you have done in your professional life. I am the witness of that. I am probably as old as your career and I have seen you working. I tried inculcating the same thing in me as well. Whatever I am today, that is just because of you giving me that traits of working hard till the task get accomplished. And please never feel lonely in your life.

Thank You So Much Dad.